maybe it's a sleepless hybrid

between insomnia, and just, deciding not to sleep at all.

and this has totally got my tomorrow on the verge of a wrecking ball swing. i've been on my study desk for about five hours after lying in bed for two. now i have to move away by four. and apparently at this rate i just don't care anymore.

as evident as it may seem thru my timezone-less facebook ramblings, i am, by all means, an insomniac. now we realize that a whole day fully devoted to just studying is fuel to an open fire.

oh well...

at least i feel glad i've been doing good, not to mention "hyperproductive". now, continuous all-nighters pulled to prepare for this final stretch. then, next steps built. they might be coming, but not just this week. not the next week either, 'cause i'll be cleaning what i have left strewn around as of the moment.

or hopefully,
trade laughter with someone i don't need but have come to pretty much enjoy.

it's just too bad that it's not that kind where i could just simply daydream the world away and find myself between the frozen hands of the clock. instead, i lay awake like a ticking time bomb, feeling a crawling sensation as this migraine keeps on pounding through the insides of my brain. basically, i am asleep but in a blur, awake but in a standstill.

but you know what,
atleast i have this world, and this world will get me there.
tata.