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Dear you,

Though this may be the only path left for me to take, please know that you will forever be in my heart. Even the hardest days I had to go through did not make me remember less of how beautiful you were especially when you were with 'that' smile in your eyes. I apologize for being too nonchalant, as a matter of fact I am so sorry that all I want now is to turn back time to tell you exactly how I feel. I miss your hands, the way its fingertips touches mine, the way it fits my own. I miss your hair and its scent and how it triggers my brain to always kiss you in the head.  I am grateful for somehow you had chosen to waste some time with me, for now more than ever I feel that you will never ever choose to do so again. Well for what it is worth, I want you to know that though it might have seemed like I was not interested in your tales, well I was. I remember most of the stories that you have deemed me worthy enough to hear, the way your manners moved me every time you open your lips and more importantly your life. I love the way that every time we walk, you talk. On the outside you were shy, reserved; while me, well I was somewhat loud and I fell in love with the idea of how our roles were reversed every time we were alone together; you did most of the talking so I just sat back and listened. I remember how I would always try to drop a call every night, so I could check on you; not because I miss you but also because I miss you. But every time you answer, all the words I had all lined up turn into something that an emotionless machine would say; and no matter how hard I try I always end up just asking you to sleep tight and wish you the sweetest dreams. I remember how it did not even matter if I was out with my friends or not, I just had to hear that voice at least once before I go to sleep. It might never have seemed like it but I cared, I cared a lot. Lastly, I want you to know that you are amazing and I admire you. Your words and the way express them, your curiosity and the way you question things, your vagueness and the way it fascinates me.  I admire you in every little thing that you do. I admire the way you live and love your life. Yes, it is sad that I have fallen for possibly the best girl I will ever meet at the worst time of my life. And it sucks that someone as good as you would end up blanking on me. So with this let me thank you for the idea that sometimes taking care of things means doing absolutely nothing at all.

I miss you.